Drawing Closer to My Beloved

Everything that can be shaken will be shaken.  This is what God has been speaking to me about this week.  He has been showing me that he wants to shake off/strip me of anything and everything that keeps me from deeper intimacy with Him.  I have begun to recognize that my selfishness, self righteousness, lack of disciplne, own agendas, stressful nature, etc... are keeping me focused on things other than Him and enjoying my life and THIS IS NOT ACCEPTABLE TO ME.  I realize that for many people when they come to the point where God says "You can have more of me if you will deal with everything in you that keeps you from coming to me" THEY RUN.  Me - I am running closer to the Lord and I am willing, however uncomfortable it is, to deal with and face all my stuff.  I desperately want to have a more intimate relationship with my Father in Heaven. I say this like it is easy and IT IS NOT.  I have had to see alot of stuff about me and my life the lasst few weeks (and I know this is just the beginning) that I do not like and I realize it is going to take awhile to work through it.  The good news - deeper relationship with the God of the Universe who loves me perfectly is on the other side.  I am not satisfied with being a Christian who goes to church, reads the Word, and loves God.  I MUST see miracles, healings, JESUS FACE TO FACE.  He has made us to know Him and see heaven on earth and that is what I want.  I am so excited at what is to come.  God has many mysteries to reveal to me and I know that as I push further on the journey I will realize the depth of His love for me in a way I have never known.  Watch out - the Kingdom is gonna feel the impact and it is gonna be amazing and NOT because of Vicki Ellis but because I am coming to a place where I hope to die to self and see God work through me.  WITH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.  Life is GOOD!!!!!